For every disorder, there must first be an order.
Who sets the order?
Which sets anything out of that to be a disorder.
Who sets the order?
Who has control?
Who has control?
Do you always have to coordinate your breathing?
No.
But you can.
Do you always have to coordinate your thoughts?
Yes?
No?
Can you?
Allah Alhafizh.
I have been having these thoughts for quite a while.
Definitely after becoming a mother.
Bahagian masing masing.
Tests, yang Allah kasi pada kita, untuk kita.
And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me.
Purpose of creation, illa liya'buduun.
Every blessing is a test.
Your test, for you.
Whatever you give, is for you.
Your responsibilities, you carry out, for you.
No one owes you anything.
We owe everything to Allah.
You gave birth, that is Allah's test for you.
Responsibility yang Allah kasi dekat you.
You raise your children, responsibilities Allah kasi dekat you.
Carrying out all those responsibilities, is on you.
Lillahi ta'ala.
Bukan supaya anak nanti "balas jasa" you.
Same goes with semua yang lain.
Habluminallah, Habluminannas
The necessity of having a balanced relationship with The Divine and also fellow human beings.
Pun your responsibility.
No one owes you anything.
Lillahi ta'ala.
Lillahi ta'ala.
Indeed, you're a "different" person depending on siapa the person you're faced with.
But this guy, decided on marriage with the idea of me as his ever annoying, serabut boleh tahan, self-centered boleh tahan best friend.
And slowly, after became "girlfriend" ada moments where he felt was given more consideration as compared to masa "bestfriend" and remarked "oh lain eh Fay as girlfriend".
But the decision was definitely before that transition.
And we know, looks is not a priority.
Harta pun xde.
And as things became more crazy lately, I asked "kenapalah u kawin dgn I kan?"
To which he answered "InsyaAllah I tahan seumur tahun"
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Semoga berbaloi.
May Allah bless.
I am worth it.
Haha.
Alhamdulillah.
